Best Friends means you pull the trigger

50550 words, and what? 3 years later this story is finished!!

Songs for the epilogue and Title song.

Happy dance!!

I finished, I finishes, I I finished, I finished

Last chapter to Best Friends means you pull the Trigger is finished!!

22chp long, and an epilogue. I'm so happy to be done with it!!

Here are some "ending of BF" song previews

They are decidedly not my typical music choice. I guess it shows the roller-coaster writing this story has put me through.

Best Friend Means you pull the Triger, there is an ending at sight!

Chp. 22 of BF is at 1587 words. I'm at a point where I could call this chp finished, not just based on the word # but the point of "they arrived", they've had their moment. However, I  think the climax will be in the next half and with out it the chp won't be as entertaining and with it the story will be DONE. This will be the difficult part to write and if I call this chp done. I will use this as an excuse to take a bit longer on 23.t

I'm not sure what I'll do, but know that repost of 21 should be soon (waiting on Beta) and 22 should also be around next week (also waiting on beta).

Little something about the Epilogue

Off to the beta it goes!

Believe it or not chps. 20 and 21 of BF was just emailed to my wonderful beta. Will post as soon as I have them back. :)

11/13/11

Quick update about 200 words done on chp. 23 of BF.  :) Could this story be finished before 2012?

BF?

What is that I see? Over there not too close but not too far. Could it really be or am I dreaming? Yup, I think it is right there in the not too near not to far future an update.

I haven't given up and I hope you guys haven't given up on me either.


Best Friends will be update, I'm working on it.

Note to Self

I owe you guys a review for The Far Away Years. I have a tight tight budget so I rarely will pay for a story I read for free, but this one was worth it. I'd like to say this started my rock star addiction, but it would be a lie. It simply fed it the most delicious supply ever...

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Hello everyone! Did anyone notice that for two days my blog disappeared? Well gmail decided that I was not over 13 years old and blocked my account with the thread of deleting it with in 29 days. This completely sucked. However, after forking over some money I've solved and so we are back!

I'm kind of pissed this all happened and I'd like to say F U gmail I'm finding another email provider but what a hassle that would be!

Anyway welcome back and hope you guys enjoy my posts and stories.

TBC Soundtrack

Trying to finish this story but as always I'm having a bit of a hard time. A lot of music is mentioned on TBC and I'd figure I share with you music that helps inspire the story. Music that the band members would enjoy, etc.

Black Choir missing scene

This scene was one of the first written for TBC. Unfortunately it won't make it into the story and this character, Al, will not likely make it either. It's really a shame because I absolutely adore her. I wish I knew how to draw so that I could show you what she looks like in my mind. She is strong, she takes charge, doesn't give a shit. She has long black hair w/ bangs, tattoos as though they were giving them out for free. Her voice is rough but melodic I wish she'd made it into the story. She might be mentioned now, but will not be playing the part I had planned for her. 

Anyway I hope you guys enjoy this little peek.

The Black Choir

I'm sorry. I've re discovered T.V and fallen into major writers block. I'll be back...I hope

Meet the Black Choir

I started this story about a century ago and I used to post it on FP.com. Then what usually happens happened and I got stuck. Now, I was trying to get into writing again (I'm trying to work on DCFR), and was just reading this story.

I know it's been a long time...

And I am sorry, life like always got crazy but in a good way. Proud to say I know have an A.A degree and that I made the dean's list. Sad to say I haven't had time to write at all. I tried a quick re write of DCFR but it didn't go very well. I think I'm going to keep it as it is.

Today was the first day in a loooong time that I actually had off as in nothing urgent to do at all. I said I was going to write but instead I got caught up with Dr. Who and Torchwood. I hope you all are watching the shows because they are simply AMAZING!

I was a little disappointing with Torchwood b/c it seemed to have lost some of it's "feeling". Yet the last episode had everything in it to yell Torchwood is back!!

To end this quick note I want to tell you all: I haven't forgotten about my stories, I will continue and I am very sorry for such a long wait.

DCFR re write, again?

I am sincerely considering re writing that story again. I think the problem with it may be that it is in Dan's POV. Perhaps it should be third person? I don't know how I feel about switching POV's I'm afraid it will end up like Profe.
I'd like to finish this and and BF before the end of the summer but it just gets harder and harder.

Gerald at Sea

Here is a wonderful drawing that Magalina made for me back in 2007! Wow how long have I been working on BF and it's still not done!
I know updating has slowed down again, but I've gone overachiever on my own ass and decided to take more than 12 credits this semester + two jobs :| So I apologize for not updating but I hope your enjoying the "Sing" and Magalina's picture

DCFR Time Line

 I have this story's time line almost completely lined out. I figured I'd share the parts that have happened with all of you. I have to say though, since it is mostly Adam's story told from Dan's POV the flow has slowed a bit, but I'm not giving up!

Love is Suicide

Adam has been yelling at me all day today.

Adam and Antoine

Antoine with the funny spelling, isn't that big of a character in DCFR, yet he has his charm and his use. He brings the jealous out of Daniel, and he pollutes, and destroys Adam, unintentionally and with a lot of care. At least that how Daniel sees it.

DCFR (diary of a.....rockstar)

Doing some music research for Adam. I loved the nineties, most my teenage years were back then haha, but I have to admit I didn't remember there being so much great music back then! Jeezz how to chose! Also I am cracking up at an article from the 90's were a dj said Creed's Torn was proof that they might one day "rule music". Really Creed?

Adam guesses their early stuff was ok.

A look into Adam

Diary of a confused and frustrated rock star, is flowing so nicely right now. I'm very excited despite the lack of reviews. The story has become darker than I had originally planed it, and it does pose a huge challenge, because it's from Daniel's POV, when most of the story is really Adam's.

Reflections and Photographs: thanks

I want to thank everyone who took the time to review this story.

Poetic Tragedy

I’ve had this phrase going in circles in my head all day today. I couldn’t pin point where I heard it, but it seemed fitting to how I felt.  The song says, “The cup is not half empty as pessimists say. As far as he's sees, nothing's left in the cup. A whole cup full of nothing for him to indulge”

Dustin/Jack

I probably could have put more effort into this, but it is very hard to find online pictures that match what I have in my mind. This is more  Jack themed than Dustin, but Jack does seem to always overwhelm Dustin

blurgh

I am taking a creative writing class, for the second part of the spring semester. It started not too long ago, and all I have to say is that I hate it. I completely hate this class. I don’t like the professor, I don’t like the way she expresses, how dismissive she is of what I tell her.

Someday, this day

I'm kind of bummed over the reception the story had. It's a cute little two part fic, but I guess it hasn't been anyones cup of tea.

Reflections and Photographs: 29 preview

Wow, I think chp. 29 is the second to last chp. for the story! Here is a picture preview for it:

Review: The Heart of Texas by RJ Scott- Bought for Kindle

Run for the hills, save yourself, run!! Just don’t lose your time and money on this “book”. “The Heart of Texas” has been the biggest waste of $7.99 I have ever made. I cannot believe I spend that much on such an insipid, boring, stupid, story.

More Jack inspiration

Here is another inpiring picture of Jack.

Dr. Who

I simply love it! Had a marathon run of the 10th Doctor on netflix, and man if I'm not completely in love. I can't wait to see the 11th Doctor.
Anyone seen the older Doctor Who's? Any recs?

Don't get me started on Torchwood, I'm at the edge of my seat hoping for a new season. Though I don't know how it is going to work with out Ianto.

Reflections and Photographs: 21 preview

ThePicture that inspired Dustin's journal entry

Reflections and Photographs: Jack

Talking to deaf ears? Perhaps but still talking, lol

Explaining Jack is a little difficult. Why he did what he did? the best way I can explain with out giving too much away is:

"Have you ever done something that you thought you had to do or you were expecting a certain response and were 100% sure you would get if you did just that? Then when things don't go your way, you are so set that you can't go back? You feel so embarrassed for what you did that you just can't manage to go back?

That is what Jack was going through, he was 100% sure Dustin would go after him, there was not one bit of doubt in his mind. Yes, he did love him, but he was young, damaged, hurt, he felt horrible seeing Dustin on the bed because he blamed himself for putting him there. MAYBE SPOILER highlight if you want to read- The moment Dustin went to the car instead of Jack, Jack felt hurt, he felt betrayed and scared that he had crossed the line Dustin always kept telling him never to cross. It set him off balance because it wasn't the way things should happen. Dustin always went after him, always. 

When Dustin woke up Jack couldn't gather the courage to see him, he was sure Dustin would break up with him. That is why he said "He knows were to find me." He expected and irate Dustin to go looking for him to demand answers, or to fix things, and if he didn't show up then Jack new for sure he'd crossed that line and it was time to move on. To Jack it was natural for Dustin to simply follow.

May not be too much of the spoiler but a lot of this is slowly revealed through out the story and I'm not sure what has been revealed yet. -

Jack didn't know Dustin had lost his memory, to him Dustin not looking for him was a clear sign Dustin didn't want to know him anymore.

Just putting this out there

You need a husband like you need a pain in the neck

And an ex-husband is as useful as an extra hole in the head.

Just something to keep in mind.

Things I don't like

I live in "always" sunny Miami, Fl. 
People imagine sun, beach, heat, sweat, dancing or I don't know what.
I think of A/C indoors, Winter PLEASE!!

Doesn't stop me from appreciating the fact that while some people had below zero temperatures, I was taking my dog to the lake and the kids outside to ride bike, light jacket was all that was needed.

The real point of the ramble is that today I did something I usually avoid, and dislike, a lot. I went to the beach. I'm not a beach person, I can't stand the sun, I hate sand between my toes, salt water and the sticky feeling it leaves on you is not something I enjoy, the whole idea of being outdoors in the "elements" just makes me cringe. Yet, today I went with my son.

I had a great time today, out there watching him. He is old enough now, that he just requieres visual supervision. Two simple rules:

- Stay where I can see you

-Answer when I call.

It works for us, it worked today. He had so much fun, he caught shrimp, fish, crabs, made friends, swam, and ate some fruit. I sat underneath a palm tree, in the shade, with a book on a towel. No sand, not much heat and didn't have to put a toe in the water.

I truly believe that what made the day good to me (because I still had sand in my hair, and got some between my toes walking towards the car) was watching him be so happy, so free so child like. It's times like the ones I had today that go to soon, and don't come often enough.

A small sacrifice on my side, gave him joy, and showed me that things, when you look at them in the right way, aren't as bad as you think.

If your ever in Miami, I recommend you go to Matheson's Hammocks Park, enjoy the peace, and beauty, and watch your kids play and discover. It's almost like being in a movie, too good to be true.

Grant

The last chapter to my short story "Grant" or "How Grant found out he wasn't as straight as he thought" was posted today.

This short story was written several years ago as a fanfic, as a complement piece to a longer story. I did some editing to it, changed names, and tried to keep it as far from the fandom as I could with out changing the story. In reality I believe it was A/U enough to require mostly only some name changes.

I like my Grant story, I like the tone and pace of it. It is far from perfect and it perhaps would need a bit more editing, if it were to ever be a "professionally published" work. However, it was never meant to be that. It was meant to be a bit of fun, a challenge, a chance to play with a side character I became attached to and that couldn't grow or show all of it's colors in the main story.

Now, I received a review, that relates the story felt rushed because of the time jumps. I couldn't agree more with the reviewer and I love the fact that she actually gave me some type of con-crit. And I started thinking about the story.

I have to mention, this short story (four chapters long, about 15,000+ words) is about Grant from age 12-13 to age 22-23. How can I avoid time jumps, and the "rushed" feeling and keep it a short story. It seems to me almost impossible! The story has to focus on important points of his life, and move on quickly or it would be a very long story.

I could probably rework the ending, make that fourth chapter into four and five. Give it a bit more depth, but then I'd have to go into Dustin's story, and Dustin already has 20+ chp story.

The point that brings Grant to Nikey is made, I think subtle and then brutal, but made. One day I'll revisit this story and try to work this out. How do you fit 12 years of a persons life in a short story?

MUFFINS

Has anyone read Requiem for a Dream?

I didn't want to watch the movie until I read the book. That was over 3 years ago, and I'm about to break down and just watch the movie. Why is the book written that way? Oh, my god, it distracts me so bad from the actual story. I keep reading back to see if I can figure out who is talking, when the "quote' started. What did this writer have against comas?

The way this book is written is keeping me from reading a book that I hear is really good. I have periodically picked up and put down this book for THREE years.

I've looked through google, as to why the book is written this way, or if anyone else finds this difficult to read and now I'm wondering, "Am I the only one? Is my book some how different than the one everyone else reads? Is the story so good you can ignore all of this that bothers me? And if so,  Why can't I?"

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